in 1999 i didnt trust in me causei wasnt normal so i needed to trust sommeone, so i trusted her to translate wat i knew , for her to be my eyes to the public/crowd

in 1999 i told her everything i knew(in private),
and i told her cause  i was afraid of telling it to the stars,the
stars
that wouldnt understand me(cause of my mind sickness blindness)i had
to trust someone
and i trusted her(though she never trusted me)
 .i was afraid of them cause i was afraid of normal people, cause i
wasnt normal
i needed someone normal to translate my abnormalness
and i thougth she could help me, cause i didnt understand normal
people. i wanted
her to say the things i told her.yet she told me nothing.i gave her
the knives
for her to stab me in the back publically.cause she wasnt afraid of
them and i was
i wanted her to be my eyes.i thought she would be good to me,cause i
didnt trust in me
.i needed a normal friend and she was my worst enemy in reality.