A Word To Kosmanson's Real-Life Inspiration :-)

I like the idea behind your Youtube channel. But instead of indulging in aimless rambling, forcing half-formed thoughts into whatever neural pathways happen to fire (cause I don't think your brain does that part well enough during REM, necessitating to do the rest in waking hours),
perhaps you could refine your approach.
Given the wealth of book material you’ve accumulated, why not _curating_ and sharing compelling quotes, insights, ideas that interests everybody who has genuine intellectual curiosity, rather than catering only to those severely handicapped with narrow academic endeavors.
In this way, your 346 subscribers will grow to become 3.46 M subscribers in no time. And then even higher than that. A source of income too, and well-earned!
You eat too much. It negatively affects quality of breathing in sleep, shortening the REM period among other drawbacks. I think part of the need in you to jabber loads of hogwash in waking hours comes from what you're missing in sleep.
But it should be easy for you to slightly modify your Youtube activity to include all interested people in it, without changing anything else in your life.
I miss that better version of your Youtube channel. I think everybody who matter is. Why don't you do something about it.